white water

... i suppose eventually after being caught in a whirl pool for so long, you eventually lose sight of which way is really up...it's possibly the most exhausting thing ever....sometimes tho...seems like i hit a sand bar and i can actually bring my face above the water to breathe for a moment...i can stand...i could walk away if i wanted to fight the strength of the current... but i let the pull take control of me... i disappear again into the white caps of confusion...