Oh lo nilly

Lo nilly, found in night
Left solo, echo my fright
Through empty space
Tinkling wine, bring grace
Dry, heavy, holding my own
Dreams tangled from the sown
To what is known

You are behind, my future
You are behind, my past
Leisure holds only so much luxury
Until life leaps and I grasp

Oh lo nilly, if only you were warm
I'd curl in your arms and be born
Growth comes from dark and deep
Bury me and may all clouds weep
So I might find life and live
The dreams I knew I'd always live

Night

oh night I swam in perfect stream
in jungles cast with starlit sheen
sky diamonds and fireflies to blame
i'll never be the same

a second hold, a kiss over sea
crimson and gold cast glows on we
then off that cliff i leapt and flew
straight to those open arms you threw

sweet summer heat, dive into blue
the waves, the warmth, enough of you
tangled in the strength, the sway
an ocean fought and pulled me away

vincent van gone my starry night
this clumsy heart, this foolish sight
might my heart shake off night's dew
and awaken to this mourn apart from you

woah i need a mountain

a mountain to climb
to make my heart race
to be able to just glance behind me
to see all i've accomplished
to feel challenged to keep climbing
the black and white of movement
forward. positive. right.
100 yards to being done.
or more...
but the view is worth it...
the sensation of success
the view of all you've surpassed
so clear and obvious
i've done it.
why can't papers and degrees be as clear as mountain views?
and what can i do to make them more enjoyable?

...ending procrastination would probably help...

fyootcha

i've accepted i'm probably not going to find myself in a long term committed relationship for a while...

right now i'm pretty set on leaving the old KY in a couple years... not digging the idea of sticking around here for so long... but it's necessary in order to meet some end goals...like travel nursing..working abroad..running around the world like a wild philanderer (partners being countries and cultures)...

truth be told, i like this pretty little city. it's not a big deal to be committed to it for a while... i'm getting in plenty of quilting and definitely maxing out on awesome experience in a fantastic ER.

but the people you meet...at least the type i'm drawn to apparently...are the ones that stick around..the ones that have gardens in their yards and like to cook and establish businesses and careers that are lasting and long term. i'm just a cool breeze in their summer... do you warn them?

i think i'm going to learn french starting next semester. then doctors without borders can't possibly turn me down.... i hope..


oh traveling man
stand
grab my hand
we'll dream

...

Know what I'm looking forward to?

Travel Nursing.

In 1.5 years.

Is that too far to be looking forward?

night shift

ah sludgy sludge
heart pound cake
at least you're sweet
plain, but sweet
heavy like a thud
like mud
zombie face
listlessly alive and
full of empty



will someone come clean my house...?
maybe zap me with one of those zapper things...what are they?

being theresa...

things are happening. life is exciting. yes, i'm semi-convincing myself...

i'm getting 2 years of emergency nurse experience in one of the #1 ERs of kentucky. 

i'm finishing my bachelor's degree.

i'm trying to practice spanish with the little spanish speaking housekeepers at work. 

i'm trying to make some friends... 

but a lot of times i find myself thinking:

 when can i get back out there?

but more importantly:

why were there two commodes in this stall?

i need to go on a trip somewhere...pair-hops the northwest...i can always use some NW in my life...

6th grade

i'm not sure why i'm going to share this...

on my first day of 6th grade... (this was back in 1997 people, so give me a break!)... i thought it was a good idea to wear a short-sleeved cropped maroon sweater-shirt underneath a pair of jean overalls with a winnie-the-pooh head floating mid-chest. i also stuffed my bra with socks for the first and last time (they were lumpy and slightly distressing....)

 i did it with good reason though... seeing as how later that year this girl kept referring to me as "president of the itty-bitty-titty-committee."
...(i kept leaving these love notes in her boyfriend's locker...wah wah).

this was the same year in which i wore my hair (EVERYDAY) pulled as tightly back into the smoothest, most unlumpiest pony tail you've ever seen. EVER.

also, this year, i tried to cut myself my own bangs, which resulted in me looking like an ugly version of my brother. one day he found a picture of US and was like "gross! i look disgusting!! ...ohh...that's theresa..."

the love notes weren't even threatening... they were pictures drawn with smelly crayons and written next to them were things like: "can you smell the eucalyptus?" "scratch and sniff this monkey!" "i'm a weirdo, run away!!"

maybe not that last bit. but i think it sent a similar message....

i think this is where i started going wrong in the relationship game... i think my method must be to scare all the boys... i'm doing a helluva job....

also, tell me what man would wear this?

time is on crack

my life is going by too fast.

i was just in south america. not. this month will be my 4th month away from it. that's about the same length of time i was even there. but i can still think back and feel it all.. so weird.

i just now spent a good amount of misdirected time reading back on my visit to london. Wasn't I just there? Nope. It's been over a year now. A YEAR?! my god, i'm going to get old fast, aren't i?

....

do you really think it was just the moment?
or do you think the magic is capable of more than just a moment?
because i do.

unexpected yummy spelt noodle salad/spaghetti

Ingredients:

1/4 block tempeh - cut into ~1x1 squares

seasoned salt (your preference)

1/2 tsp - thyme

1/2 tsp - red pepper

1 tbs - Bragg's Amino Acids

1/2 c. onions

1 clove garlic

2 mushrooms

1/2 c. sliced carrots

1/2 c. cilantro

1 tomato

1 tsp cumin

1/2 tsp paprika

squirt of Bragg's

salad greens

whole spelt noodles (or whatevs)

DISCLAIMER: all measurements are estimated as i tend to just throw stuff together and make a decision intuitively and according to taste...(this sometimes turns out horrible...but i wouldn't share that recipe with you...)

in my head...i thought i was making a grilled tempeh salad... you know: tempeh, salad, otro raw veggies, dressing...

so i started by throwing a little olive oil over the tempeh...in addition i sprinkled lightly some seasoned salt, thyme, red pepper, and a squirt of Bragg's amino acids (i think that's it...) i let it soak for forever (i'm impatient so it was probably like 10-15min)

...as i was heating my cast iron i remembered i had some onions left over, so i thought i'd somehow incorporate those...you know: grilled onions. could taste good on a salad, right?

 i added some olive oil to my skillet and threw in my onions. 

...looking into my skillet, i realized i had more onions than was appropriate for just a salad... 

..i added the tempeh in after a minute and it verified my concern...

so i cut up a clove of garlic and added it to the onions after a few minutes... 

then i sprinkled a handful of sliced carrots in... 

and 2 sliced up mushrooms...

this mix wasn't quite green enough for me so i grabbed a handful of cilantro and put the whole leaves straight in....

along with one diced tomato.

next i scattered a couple seconds worth of cumin, some more seasoning salt,  a squirt of Bragg's amino acids, and a dash of paprika.... and let it all simmer so the flavors could soak in...

while the simmering was happening, i boiled some water and had some whole spelt spaghetti noodles softening up to al-dente perfection (4 whole minutes!)....Drain!

i created a light bed of mixed salad greens, a second layer of noodles, and third of my concocted toppings....

delish!

oh! i also added some seasoned cheese curds to mine for an extra topping but i think if i had had a different kind of cheese it might have been better...maybe some parmesan? but it tasted fine without!

colombia and peru

my trip to South America:

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