Friday, January 15, 2010


empty hands
brand new start
headed west
with a tender heart
goodbyes hold you strong
wave you over like you've done wrong
tears they say goodbye
little ones please don't cry
cuz sister's gotta go
sister has some things she wants to know
so she moves on
yeah she moves on
and walls come down around
snow in her eyes and ice on the ground
she didn't even see it coming...
didn't see the swift and cunning
with all she owned
the river groaned
her car was gone: quite stunning...
she found her empty hands in river lands
and bore no more

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

moving to oregon

exciting to be heading out soon. less than 24 hours and i'll be well on my way to my homeland.

i don't have a job yet..i can only hope that an option will open up for me once i'm there. the option to stay here is unavailable to me (by choice). got to get my adventure on while i still can. who knows what kind of obstacles will come my way in the next few years.
i'm not scared.
i love oregon.
i love her fir trees, her evergreens, her mountain peaks and voluptuous coastlines, her clear cool waters and outdoor adventure opportunities at every corner. i love the free vibe of portland and the warmth it seems there is towards bicyclists. i love the open and green mindset...
maybe i won't love her so much once i become closer than a childhood friend and a yearly visitor to her lands. perhaps once i get some of her soil under my nails i'll be missing my old kentucky hills...
but perhaps i'll find a place that feels like home. who knows. i'll be appreciating the adventure regardless of the outcomes...

it is so so tender..saying goodbye to my family. someday those kids will understand the urge i hope.
yesterday i spent hours in lexington saying hello and goodbye to friends.... was great to see so many people..
i had been feeling very guilty about procrastinating so greatly in going up to visit. i think once guilt sets in my procrastination only doubles and multiplies. giving me one day to fit in everyone. i'm quite excellent at it...procrastination that is. it doesn't help that i don't really enjoy goodbyes.
thankfully, my friends understand the complications of moving...and the majority were just happy to have a little time with me. thankfully.
i'm real blessed with good friends....i'm sure i didn't think i would find such great ones in lexington when i first moved up there. actually it took months to feel i had any connection at all with most people. i guess that's how it is. takes time.
i'm grateful for the time i got to spend with them. for the part they played in my life.

and i hope they feel free to come and visit me in oregon. how exciting!!!

Monday, January 11, 2010


you have to be really careful who you sing to. you just never know who will love your song or who will laugh at it or who will feign interest in it only to keep you around or worse yet who will take it for granted and abuse or ignore it, yet somehow string you along to think there's something they like.

you can't take someone's body language to be truth over their words or their actions. and just because some occasional words or actions are nice doesn't mean the big picture is nice. they're not emotionally handicap. they're not sensitively constipated. they're not just a little scared. they're just not interested. or they're not interested enough to know whether they are or not eager to jump in, whether or not this fish is worth catching.
it's best to let those ones go.
move on.

Sunday, January 10, 2010

nursing jokes

You know you're a nurse if...

You believe every patient needs TLC: Thorazine, Lorazepam and Compazine.

You would like to meet the inventor of the call light in a dark alley one night.

You believe not all patients are annoying ... some are unconscious.

Your sense of humor seems to get more "warped" each year.

You know the phone numbers of every late night food delivery place in town by heart.

You can only tell time with a 24 hour clock.

Almost everything can seem humorous ... eventually.

When asked, "What color is the patient's diarrhea?", you show them your shoes.

Every time you walk, you make a rattling noise because of all the scissors and clamps in your pockets.

You can tell the pharmacist more about the medicines he is dispensing than he can.

You carry "spare" meds in your pocket rather than wait for pharmacy to deliver.

You refuse to watch ER because it's too much like the real thing and triggers "flash backs."

You check the caller ID when the phone rings on your day off to see if someone from the hospital is trying to call to ask you to work.

You've been telling stories in a restaurant and had someone at another table throw up.

You notice that you use more four letter words now than before you became a nurse.

Every time someone asks you for a pen, you can find at least three of them on you.

You can intubate your friends at parties.

You don't get excited about blood loss ... unless it's your own.

You live by the motto, "To be right is only half the battle, to convince the physician is more difficult."

You've basted your Thanksgiving turkey with a Toomey syringe.

You've told a confused patient your name was that of your coworker and to HOLLER if they need help.

Eating microwave popcorn out a clean bedpan is perfectly natural.

Your bladder can expand to the same size as a Winnebago's water tank.

When checking the level of orientation of a patient, you aren't sure of the answer.

You find yourself checking out other customer's arm veins in grocery waiting lines.

You can sleep soundly at the hospital cafeteria table during dinner break, sitting up and not be embarrassed when you wake up.

You avoid unhealthy looking shoppers in the mall for fear that they'll drop near you and you'll have to do CPR on your day off.

You've sworn you're going to have "NO CODE" tattooed on your chest.

Thursday, January 07, 2010


eventually i want to cycle a lot of oregon... anyways here is a link i just found:

bicycle oregon

can't wait to explore her :)

i guess if i find more interesting links i'll add them here:

travel oregon

Wednesday, January 06, 2010


i'm so stressed. and i don't even realize it.
i have six days until i'm moving to oregon.
i have people in my hometown i want to spend time with. three different groups actually, including my beloved immediate family.
i have people in my work town i'd like to spend time friends and church family for the last hour and a half away...
and three hours away i have a friend who invited me up who i arranged LONG ago to visit this weekend.

...guess i'll accept failing somebody and do the best that i can...

i'm thankful for:
1)getting cooked for...
2)beds thick and cushy and warm. i'm going to have a comfortable bed someday.
3)little sisters...who have no difficulties showing love and spending time with me.

Monday, January 04, 2010


1)i'm thankful for music... the kind that hits your core...toasts you over. mmm
2)i'm thankful for my family. who simply love me and demand nothing more really...
3)i'm thankful for getting to dress up, have someone cook for me, pour me some wine, play guitar with, share thoughts and write notes like 5th graders with the ashes of matchsticks in front of a fireplace filled with candles.

Sunday, January 03, 2010


1)i'm thankful for panera bread soup during the winter. it makes me warm from the inside out.
2)i'm thankful for friends who are willing to meet me at a coffee shop and enjoy conversation for not just an hour, but a couple..
3)i'm thankful for friends. friends who are friends after being apart. for the moments in our lives that might seem short lived but can warm us long after they've passed.
4)i'm thankful for the opportunity to choose good over bad, right over wrong, love over hate....thankfulness over bitterness.