reality

i feel fake...
i feel like i'm not sure what reality is...
i'm not sure i really know how i feel...
or how i think...
i feel like i do things differently depending on who's around...
not necessarily intentionally...i guess i'm just that easily swayed...
i guess my opinions aren't that grounded...
is it wrong to be so flexible?
on some things, i think so...
on others...i think not...

sometimes i want to just go lay in the grass and stare up at the sky and let the world spin around me....
i haven't done it yet... it's usually been cold, i've been busy, or the ground is wet...

what would i be like if i were truly free from social norms, traditions, and laws?
free from opinions and expectations...?
free from the me that considers all those things?
what would i be?