Oh lo nilly

Lo nilly, found in night
Left solo, echo my fright
Through empty space
Tinkling wine, bring grace
Dry, heavy, holding my own
Dreams tangled from the sown
To what is known

You are behind, my future
You are behind, my past
Leisure holds only so much luxury
Until life leaps and I grasp

Oh lo nilly, if only you were warm
I'd curl in your arms and be born
Growth comes from dark and deep
Bury me and may all clouds weep
So I might find life and live
The dreams I knew I'd always live

Night

oh night I swam in perfect stream
in jungles cast with starlit sheen
sky diamonds and fireflies to blame
i'll never be the same

a second hold, a kiss over sea
crimson and gold cast glows on we
then off that cliff i leapt and flew
straight to those open arms you threw

sweet summer heat, dive into blue
the waves, the warmth, enough of you
tangled in the strength, the sway
an ocean fought and pulled me away

vincent van gone my starry night
this clumsy heart, this foolish sight
might my heart shake off night's dew
and awaken to this mourn apart from you

woah i need a mountain

a mountain to climb
to make my heart race
to be able to just glance behind me
to see all i've accomplished
to feel challenged to keep climbing
the black and white of movement
forward. positive. right.
100 yards to being done.
or more...
but the view is worth it...
the sensation of success
the view of all you've surpassed
so clear and obvious
i've done it.
why can't papers and degrees be as clear as mountain views?
and what can i do to make them more enjoyable?

...ending procrastination would probably help...

fyootcha

i've accepted i'm probably not going to find myself in a long term committed relationship for a while...

right now i'm pretty set on leaving the old KY in a couple years... not digging the idea of sticking around here for so long... but it's necessary in order to meet some end goals...like travel nursing..working abroad..running around the world like a wild philanderer (partners being countries and cultures)...

truth be told, i like this pretty little city. it's not a big deal to be committed to it for a while... i'm getting in plenty of quilting and definitely maxing out on awesome experience in a fantastic ER.

but the people you meet...at least the type i'm drawn to apparently...are the ones that stick around..the ones that have gardens in their yards and like to cook and establish businesses and careers that are lasting and long term. i'm just a cool breeze in their summer... do you warn them?

i think i'm going to learn french starting next semester. then doctors without borders can't possibly turn me down.... i hope..


oh traveling man
stand
grab my hand
we'll dream

...

Know what I'm looking forward to?

Travel Nursing.

In 1.5 years.

Is that too far to be looking forward?

night shift

ah sludgy sludge
heart pound cake
at least you're sweet
plain, but sweet
heavy like a thud
like mud
zombie face
listlessly alive and
full of empty



will someone come clean my house...?
maybe zap me with one of those zapper things...what are they?

being theresa...

things are happening. life is exciting. yes, i'm semi-convincing myself...

i'm getting 2 years of emergency nurse experience in one of the #1 ERs of kentucky. 

i'm finishing my bachelor's degree.

i'm trying to practice spanish with the little spanish speaking housekeepers at work. 

i'm trying to make some friends... 

but a lot of times i find myself thinking:

 when can i get back out there?

but more importantly:

why were there two commodes in this stall?

i need to go on a trip somewhere...pair-hops the northwest...i can always use some NW in my life...