i was just looking at some old blogs of some old friends. ...
and thinking too much about this dude...
i feel bad about the last years of mine and s.m.'s friendship.
i wish i could go back and do things right.
i just wish i could have been a little stronger...and made better decisions.
before a few years ago, i don't think i used to think so negatively about my past.
some people don't regret. i regret.
mostly i regret hurting people.
i wish i didn't think so often of myself.
i wish i thought more of myself.
i wish i wasn't so hesitant.
i wish i wasn't so impulsive.
i wish i was strong....
i hate it when i don't know what other people want me to do sometimes...
i hate it when i don't know what i want to do sometimes...
i despise how i allow myself to think so much and get so anxious over situations that another person probably doesn't give a shit about.
sometimes... i wish i could run away..
sometimes... i wish i could pinch people really hard... maybe that would wake them up.
i hate doubting myself.
....
...
i'm going to go run.
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