going home

it's the perfect winter day really... the sun is shining really bright and it's in the upper 40*s. just a chilly breeze blowing, but nothing bad.. and here i am... alone.

(note: for those of you that are about to go "awww..." : alone does not equal lonely.)

it's quiet, peaceful, empty while i pack my things away debating on which and what would be more useful to bring home. (is it really worth packing down 4 flights of stairs?) i'm the girl who packs duct tape, needles, and super glue (just in case)...maybe i'll get bored and need this, huh?

often i'll recall a past moment in the semester and laugh out loud to myself... occasionally (but not often) i'll wrinkle my nose and sigh and then try to forget it...

i wasn't as involved in college as i had liked to be.. yes, i hung out with people nearly every night.. i attended bsu faithfully and often went to fca as well and i did some disciple nows and revival teams... but i don't know...i'd like to do something that improves something around here... maybe sga...maybe i'll go for the play next year... i just want to be a part of a group i think...i don't know though..i'm pretty involved outside of college, buuutt... we'll see we'll see...

overall i guess this semester was a success... there were plenty of things i know i could have done better (homework, bible study, etc)... there were plenty of mistakes made as well (said the wrong things, chose the wrong way, etc...) i guess the only thing to do is spend time preparing for the next semester, be ready for it, and act on what i know... hmm.. we'll see we'll see...

it has been fun tho...flashbacks begin from hauling all my junk into a mini room...smaller than my room at home...and then i had to share with basically a stranger. i placed each piece thoughtfully while my brother stood by and watched...we chatted about different things... and then..there she was in a crazy chaos of strange people and boxes: my roommate. completely different than what i pictured really. kind of goofy and comfortable. from the start i wasn't so sure what kind of relationship we would end up having, but due to a wide ranging stream of events...somehow...shewt..who woulda thought we'd become so close? while hoping to make a friend i ended up finding a sister...

losing everything an anything the very first week of school... varying from my medical card, to my keys... somethings disappeared on more than one occasion only to reappear in strange, odd places (my pocket, my hand, etc.)... it has become a popular saying here on my side of the room: "sarah! did you take my (fill in the blank)" ...of course, i knew she never did and she knew i knew she never did...thus, came the reply, "what did you lose this time?"

visiting that dusty little chapel who's usual visitors consisted of spiders and, as a result, included a lovely decor of cobwebs strung about from pew to pew, wall to wall. i'll never forget the humbling beauty about the place... my heart racing even as i neared it... and the awe-filled presence about the place... clearing it out and making it somewhere where people would be comfortable coming to get away from the world...our own dear sanctuary where the world can be left at the steps with your shoes and christ can be found again or met more clearly at the foot of the cross...

finding my job at eagle express...(complete God-send) ... working with those people, getting to know those beautiful kids...

the faces of 4 girls at the movie theaters, popcorn in their hands, enjoying a movie... and the thank yous afterwards...

a random offer to join in a slip and slide event on a crazy freezing day... to think we nearly rejected the offer, but in a momentary decision fled to our rooms to prepare... piling into the back of a lovely yellow truck... little did i know my ultimate dreams were about to come true... covered in oil, racing to a mat, lightening sliding into a murky pool of mud and grass strands on the opposing side... half an hour later the mat was pulled from it's spikes and we proceeded to wrestle eachother into the filth.. oh, it was lovely. the finest moments of life. pulling a plug of mud and mire and mixing it with mirth as it flew from one hand to another's hair.

a midnight venture around the county somehow coming to rest at my home

some of the most entertaining, energetic, and challenging games of hide and go seek i've ever been a part of

a spur of the moment expidition to the amazing New York City...two cars...seven college students... and as little money as you can imagine... but minds soaring with adventure ...

there's more there's always more... but i definitely need to finish packing...

this break is pregnant with opportunity to refocus my heart and mind... even now ideas and options are clicking through my head... things that i want to do..books i want to read, tasks i want to accomplish... friends i want to call... i hope i take advantage of this time...perhaps i'll leave the tv off completely... hmm.. who knows... but hopefully i'll change this break and come back a better person... more driven, more focused, and more in love than ever...