it's odd participating in events and a schedule contrary to the one that i've been attending and living in for a while... it's hard to make sense of.. it scares me...i suppose because i don't want to follow the same path that i followed before...a life of purity and loyalty and then a sharp downfall to apathy and death pretty much... i don't want to be so naive again... i don't want to lie to myself... or others. i want to be honest, real, and alive....
i just question myself i guess... yes, i drink...yes, i go to the prayer chapel....no, i don't think drinking is wrong... yes, i think drinking too much is bad... yes, i'm human...yes, i make mistakes... no, i don't have it all figured out yet....yes, i'm working on it....no, i don't want to be stupid anymore.... yes, i want the Lord to heal me.... yes, i want Him to lead me... yeah, i don't want to be trapped anymore... yeah...i want victory...i want success in the Lord.... i want purity....
i guess i'm just saying i'm trying...i'm living... i'm looking to Him as best as i can right now...
i just question myself i guess... yes, i drink...yes, i go to the prayer chapel....no, i don't think drinking is wrong... yes, i think drinking too much is bad... yes, i'm human...yes, i make mistakes... no, i don't have it all figured out yet....yes, i'm working on it....no, i don't want to be stupid anymore.... yes, i want the Lord to heal me.... yes, i want Him to lead me... yeah, i don't want to be trapped anymore... yeah...i want victory...i want success in the Lord.... i want purity....
i guess i'm just saying i'm trying...i'm living... i'm looking to Him as best as i can right now...
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